my life is so fucked up.

i've been lying so much nowadays... i feel so confused, so lost somehow... it's as though everyone is gettin distant... i feel so far away from the world... i feel like i'm some fucked up bitch... i'm losin my temper over da slightest thing... i snap and jump at everyone... i feel like slappin everyone, sometimes even myself. my temper is gettin worse and worse. i feel like shit. i think i need a break, to get away from everything... amazing. sometimes i make myself busy so that i won't think about such things... i always want to have sth to do, so that my imagination wun run wild... i feel awful when i'm free, cuz i dun wanna think, honestly.

i'm insecure. i think way too much.

anyways at least i'm talkin to mB now... at least dat brightens up my day... but i just feel dat in my pursuit, i'm neglectin many things i oughta be concentrating on... i'm quarrellin with everyone at home, i feel like slappin myself, my grades are slipping, and there is so much politics going on i feel suffocated. and not to mention my friends. i think i'm gonna lose them soon if i dun sort all of this out. my life is such a piece of shit right now.